Confessions

There are times when I want to give up fighting the fight. Why must everything be so difficult? Why are my prayers not being heard? What must I do? Where are you? I seek you, I know your there, then why? Why must you allow hurt? Convict the heart I pray, and yet I still do not know their truth. Anger builds in me, I can blow at anytime. Just challenge the truth with your lies and deception. I dare you and you will see my anger.  I love the only way I know how, DEEP and FOREVER. Nothing will ever get in the way of that love, no matter what deception satan uses. YET, how does one prove that? I have the love of the lord, so how do I earn the other? I grow tired of the fight. I want only joy and happiness, I want security and warmth, I want strength and prosperity, for the ones I love. My strength is in the Lord.  Though I doubt, you are still able to provide me strength.  Hear me Lord, if the greatest of all these is LOVE, then how do I earn it? How does one earn Love? Love and trust, dont they walk together? If not one than what about the other? If your unwilling to trust can there be true love? You answered my prayer all those years ago, I have thanked you and I am grateful, than why must it be, what have I missed? Trust in the Lord and lean not on my own understanding! Amen

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